As of late, I had been subjected to a lot of stress, much like my fellow college students. Finals week is approaching, and we are in the middle of our hell month. (Ha. Ha.) Stress affects all of us differently, and people have different levels of tolerance for stress.
Right now, I am having sleepless nights, sleepiness at day, irritability, more stress, and more importantly, proneness to anxiety. I have noticed that I have small anxiety attacks whenever I am extremely stressed, and other times for causes I have no idea on whatsoever. During these anxiety attacks, I have shortness of breath, wave of dizziness, bout of nausea, cold sweat, and my thoughts going on so fast about a lot of things.
Anxiety isn't easy. Being unable to check if this is only stress-induced or beyond that is completely saddening for me. My course, even if it is a soft science as other people call it, has its own hardships, and its own complications.
Requirements and exams that pool in the same week from different subjects, people I am better off not interacting with (or better yet, seeing), handling personal demons that I have been trying to face for so long, and not having fun or loosening up enough to actually find the time to relax -- these are the things that I suspect to be the sources of stress of mine right now. I've been told time and time again that I need to relax and have fun. One even suggested that I adopt a bit of a reward system, because I don't like slacking off too much. I am thankful for all the advice I received.
Don't tell me that you have things harder, I have no right to be so stressed, my definition of stress is shallow, and such. For me, these are big sources of stress, even if it is milder compared to your own set of stressors. We all have our hardships and perceive things differently. That is all.
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